It has been awhile since my last post and bunch of stuff has happened since then. You know some good, some meh and some bad. Not to dwell on to much of one thing, I have decided to start writing again, and do what I should have been doing all along: And that is to write. It is a gift that has been giving to me that I have nether used as a I should, not have I honed into useful tool. To do that I must write and learn. (Just as a side note here: A Gift does not mean I am talented. That’s a whole other thing to itself.)

My whole life, and I mean my whole life, I believed in a non-truth ( probably several actually). And that is I should be great at something the first time I try or it wasn’t meant to be. That is as weird as it sounds but true. The church I grew up in said everyone had certain gifts and they were not the same for everyone. In my mind that got misconstrued some how. The thing is I learn new things and try to educated myself on subjects that matter to me. It is work and I have to do it slowly because that is the way I learn. Why I thought the way I did I cannot say but it is simply wrong.

My Pops (that is what I called my Dad) read my writing and was my number one fan. After he passed away I lost interest in writing and in sharing what little I did write. It has been 10+ years since then and I am sure if he was here he would still be my fan and want me to push on. But now that I am totally aware how jacked up my thought process is, it is time to push myself a little and get uncomfortable a lot. The saying “no pain, no gain” is true and it is a pain worth doing.

As corny as it sounds it is about the Journey and not about the destination. The Journey I am on now is new and scary to me but I must practice and share the gifts I have. If I do not, I feel they will faded away and be lost. This is not a sprint ,it is just one step at a time, one day at a time.